Lazy Days and busy weekends

We are racing our way through October and before I know where we are it will be November, and there is no way I am ready for that just yet.  I have been so busy just lately, so busy in fact that updating this blog has been a bit on a back burner.  I seem just lately to be attending numerous meetings, preparing drafts of business plans of all varieties, coupled with cash flow projections, setting up email accounts, websites, signing up for Twitter and all other forms of  social networking.  Having lived my life under a shell for the past year, recovering from this body blow of an unwanted divorce, I find myself forced out into the public eye and having to leave my shell behind.

November will bring for me another day at the hospital when the frame is removed from my daughter's arm.  I know this is a good thing, but it involves anesthetic, which I am not keen on, but I can't expect it to be done without it of course!  For her it will be brilliant as she will be able to wear most of her clothes again, the frame being too large to fit into the armhole of her tops or jackets.  She wears a sling to put her arm into while at school or out in public as the sight of the rods screwed directly into her arm and bones is too much for most people, let alone the wires that go right through her arm.  It has been a mixed reaction from people when they see it, some are fine, many are not.  One boy in one of her classes, a strapping 6 and a half footer, asks her to make sure it is fully covered when he has to sit near her, just in case he should catch sight of it!

Secondly I am expected to start my business (or should I say businesses) up.  The preparation is great, but there will of course come the day when I will have to "lift up the shutters" or "open the door" and start trading, that scares me.  I have no problems with ideas, or dealing with the scenarios in my head, but the in person thing is terrifying.  I have to do this, I have a 16 year old daughter and a 10 year old cat that are depending on me making a go of this.  Granted only the one of them is intending on going to university but the other does have high expectations regarding the quality of his food and biscuits!

Thirdly I have my what is supposed to be last appearance in court to sort out the financials of this divorce.  This should have been dealt with using mediators, it would have been far less expensive.  I was happy to go this route, but it needs both parties to be prepared to be involved.  One party deciding that going to court is the only option means the other has to comply and deal with the associated costs involved.  I just want it over with now.  I thought there might have come a day when all this would have been behind us like an awful dream and we would be back together again, but no more.  Too much water has passed under the bridge now and I just want out.

In better news I am learning to meditate in an effort to still my monkey brain and get some respite from the crowded house the inside of my head regularly becomes.  I am learning to take things easier, lead a simpler life, and in an effort to move in this direction this morning DD and I set off to take part in a local history walk.  It was brilliant, very informative and I am really glad we both took part in it.  This afternoon one of the ladies from the cat charity I volunteer with called to the house to drop off some video footage of new cats that have been taken into the shelter and she got an opportunity to meet our cat again, having last seen him as the bedraggled, patchy haired, bad toothed and ear mite ridden cat he had once been.  Now he is sporting a glossy coat, has put on weight and is a generally happy cat, definitely the alpha male in our household!  In fact I am convinced he believes he is in charge of me!  Little does he know!